I did not have a cigarette for breakfast. I did not talk
to the rabbit hole. I did not tell anyone I loved them
for the hell of it. I did not flirt with the butterknife.
I did not take shame and guilt and self-inflicted pain
like a multivitamin. I did not try to hollow myself out,
today. I did not get jealous of the sky for being
empty. I did not resent my mouth for being full.
I did not read the pill bottle label like a newspaper.
I did not dream of bruises blooming from my thighs
like forget-me-not’s. I did not feel the need to prove
I have suffered. I did not live in the minds of the
women I used to be. I did not kiss silence, today.
I am proud of this, but some mornings, I worry:
Did I leave my opinion in her mouth?”
“What makes the sky so beautiful is our inability to perceive it all at once.”
“Nothing ever ends poetically. It ends and we turn it into poetry. All that blood was never once beautiful. It was just red.”
I HATE ACCIDENTALLY HURTING DOGS THEY SCREAM AND THEN THEY ACT LIKE THEYRE SORRY AND ITS THEIR FAULT AND THEY TRUSTED YOU AND YOU FUCKING STEPPED ON THEM OR PICKED THEM UP WRONG THEY TRUSTED YOU AND YOU HURT THEM
“And then we’re broken and what good did that do? So I have that to think about all day and all night - and the worry is like a band of some sort across the inside of the top of my head - and there isn’t anything else. All I can think is that you that are all that I have and that I love more than all that is and have given up everything for and betrayed everything for and killed off everything for are being destroyed and your nerves and your spirit broken all time day and night and that I can’t do anything about it because you won’t let me.”
“I’m interested in the way in which the past affects the present and I think that if we understand a good deal more about history, we automatically understand a great more about contemporary life.”